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Speaker: The Instrument for Peace was developed because
people often need some kind of concise tool that can help when they’re
starting to feel some kind of upset. They’ll say ‘I need
to have some steps to be guided through’, realizing that of course
the more you do the steps the more you are rewiring your mind and reconnecting.
It should get easier and easier to just zip back into your right mind
as you open to this new way of perceiving, this new way of thinking.
This Instrument for Peace is a way of working through things.
Working through upsets and healing the mind. That’s
what we want to do because eventually you start to realize that the
pains and the pleasure are two sides of one coin and they are both capable
of distracting you from the peace of non-judgment and just being still.
The Course is very different from that old saying of accentuate the
positive and eliminate the negative. The positive and the negative are
both two sides of one continuum of judgment and you have to release
the whole continuum.
But, this is really a good start of working with some
of the metaphysics in a very practical way. So, it doesn’t matter
if its mild irritation, annoyance, or an intense emotion. It might be
good if you start to work with this on a daily basis, start with some
of the smaller upsets and build some confidence with it before you go
after the jugular of the ego. It’s like anything else. You learn
how to ride a bike. You gain some confidence balancing and peddling
before you enter a triathlon.
I’ll just read through the Introduction, Working
through upsets and healing your mind. “The mind at peace is healed.
The mind at Peace has whole heartedly welcomed peace. In this world
lack of Peace occurs in many forms. For permanent healing to occur lack
of peace must be traced back to its singular cause in the mind. Use
of this instrument for that tracing back can help a willing mind let
go of what it thinks it knows see the world differently and experience
a present state of peace and joy.” So that’s the introduction.
It’s just a very practical tool to keep the focus on the peace.
We’re doing this for the Peace of Mind.
So we’ll start with number one and you can see
you can just answer the questions and fill in the blanks and put it
down on the paper as honestly as you can. If you have something that’s
troubling you or upsetting you it doesn’t matter what it is, how
strong it is or how intense. You start off with what you’re thinking
about. It can be your thoughts or thoughts about specific persons, places,
events. Thoughts about what is coming next in your life or thoughts
about something that happened very recently in your life; maybe this
retreat was a little unsettling. Something that seems to be bubbling
up in your consciousness and you would like to use this instrument to
work through. So, that’s what we mean by very practical. Then
just start off with #1 and fill in A. When I think about ‘A’
which can be a past or future action, situation or event. It could even
involve persons. Feel free to write anything that comes to mind for
Then you can see where ‘B’ is. It follows
right after that. You’re just trying to name the specific upsetting
emotions. As soon as you’ve got your action, situation, event
or person and your feelings that are associated with that action, situation,
event or person then try to name who or what seems to be to blame or
there’s a second part what you’re afraid will occur in the
future. It’s going into the specifics of what you’re afraid
will occur in the future or who or what seems to be at blame. These
could even be blaming yourself. For many people it seems there’s
nobody to blame in their lives so they blame themselves for the feelings.
You could fill in both of them if you have someone to blame and you
still have ideas of what could happen in the future which is part of
the worry or concern.
Then #2 what we’re going to work at is going
a little deeper. You might think of deeper because it takes it a little
deeper into your mind. What you’re perceiving and thinking. What
you’re feeling and the justifications and reasons that you’re
telling yourself. That’s all encapsulated in #1. #2 is stating
A,B & C The actions, situations, events, persons. All the feelings
associated with those actions, events, situations or persons and also
the justifications of why. Your current thoughts about the situation
that is troubling. All of those prove that I am right about ‘D’
and ‘D’ is basically what we have been calling in our workshop
and retreat ‘self concept’ Everything that you think and
feel and believe about yourself that’s related to images of the
world. Not only your personality self, the persona or the mask which
seems to be who you are but everything that’s part of the mask;
the environment that seems to surround the person is also part of that
mask. So you can write ‘D’ out in anyway that you feel comfortable.
You could call it my self concept, my self image. The self I made up
to take the place of the Self that God created.
And I think the key word in there is A, B&C prove that I am right
about this construct or this image. I put in parenthesis underneath
it (my belief in lack taking the form of an image of self, other, the
world). Because inevitably when you make a concept up to take the place
of your true nature, your spiritual nature, this construct or this concept
is lacking in some way. It’s never really fulfilled. It never
reaches the place where it says I am an ego and I have no needs. You
just never get there.
So, we’re going to go on here. It says, ‘I
do not like how I feel now.’ In terms of this upset that we’re
talking about up there in ‘B’ I do not like how I feel now.
So, I’m ready to consider the possibility that the way I am perceiving
this is not the way it really is. As part of the healing process I am
willing to look beyond my perception of this upset, the meaning I have
given it, and look within my mind. Start to summarize it here where
you say, “I want to learn that there is a way that I can, without
guilt see the part that I play in thinking A, and feeling B, and in
blaming C and/or fearing C. So, you’re starting to bring it back
and trace it back and see without guilt the part that you play in these
things. That you’re not a victim. That there’s actually
something that you’re actively engaged in that’s bringing
about these emotions, these perceptions.
So, #3 you’re just kind of summarizing A, B&C.
It’s repeating it in some ways. But it’s just bringing it
all up to the content of consciousness and just kind of laying it bare
and exposing it.
#4 is getting to that word ‘release’ now.
I release my wanting to be right about my perceptions of all of this;
A,B,C&D. This comes back to that willingness. Willingness to look
beyond my perception of this upset and look within my mind. So, ‘I
release my wanting to be right about my perception of all of this. I
want instead to be happy. Through the ego’s distorted thinking
and seeing I perceive the cause of my upset and its resolution as outside
my mind. This projection seems very real. Its purpose is to distract
my mind from looking inward.’ So, we’re starting to make
the connection there that the upset seems to be related to something
in the world and the resolution also seems to be something that’s
related to the world.
For example, if somebody seems to have a stressful
job it’s quite common to think well, I just need to quit my job
and as soon as I’ve left the job I’ll be happy. So that’s
the way the mind works. It sees problems and solutions in form. I will
be ok if…I’ll be happier when…It’s also looking
for the geographical solution and shifting something around in form.
That’s where this is all leading. It’s going to have to
be a change in your mind. A change in your perception that’s going
to actually work and it takes courage to change the things that you
can. It takes lots of courage to change your mind.
#5 ‘If the cause of my upset and its resolution
were outside my mind I would in fact be powerless to change my state
of mind.’ It’s because of projection that C seems to be
Participant: Can we go into seeing outside what I don’t want
to see within a little bit more?
Speaker: Yes, seeing outside what I don’t want
to see inside is one way of seeing projection. In other words, it’s
almost like one of the ego’s defense mechanisms is that if you’re
feeling hurt or angry or shame or guilt or something, just get rid of
it and see it outside of you? In other words, it will take the pressure
off, if you point the finger and you blame or you point at something
else, including the body.
Ah ha! We’ve got the culprit. He’s right
there! That’s what the dynamic of projection is. So, like I was
saying the other day. If you still believe in something but you don’t
want to confess to your belief in it then you can point the finger and
say I have a lazy roommate. Not seeing that you believe in laziness
and that your mind is holding onto the concept of laziness, but you’re
projecting it out and saying, ‘I’m not lazy. I am trustworthy
and hard working. My room mate is lazy.’ It’s a sneaky trick
to think that the roommate is lazy and you’re still holding onto
So that’s how it works. You could always say
in terms of D, my belief in lack taking the form of image of self/other/the
world. The ego itself, the ego identity is the belief in lack. God is
perfect fullness. There is no lack in God. There is no lack in love.
But, the ego is lacking. This belief in lack gets buried and then it
gets projected out.
So, #6 is ‘Thinking A, feeling B and blaming
and/or fearing C results in my belief in lack taking the form of an
image of self/other/the world.’ So, we’re making a connection
now between A,B,C,D. Before in #2 it was that A,B,C proved that I’m
right about this. And now in #6 we’re saying that A,B & C
come from believing in D. Everything I’m thinking and feeling
or fearing and blaming or whatever. All of that is a direct result of
D. D is the cause.
#7 is going to explain it a little bit better. ‘I
am only upset at someone or something when they or it mirror back to
my mind a belief which I have denied from awareness.’ So, this
is the gift of relationship and the gift of environment and the gift
of everything in the world of this mirroring back the belief that I
have denied from awareness. I’ve pushed it into my subconscious
mind and I just assumed it to be true.
Participant: So, for #7, what if it’s only my
self? If you’re blaming yourself for something so I’m only
upset at myself.
Speaker: Yes, that would still be a belief that I’ve
denied from awareness. In other words, if you were upset at yourself,
lets say that you’re projecting it onto the personality self and
you’re really angry and you’re saying, ‘How could
I have gotten myself into this circumstance or whatever and you’re
projecting it onto the body and you’re blaming the small self.
It still means that this projection and even this self is still mirroring
back to my mind a belief which I have denied from awareness so even
in that case there’s still some unconscious belief that is doing
the mirroring. That’s what you have to do with your mind training.
You have to catch yourself.
Very important to catch it instead of to react and
judge and draw conclusions of oh, I’m just a stupid person or
I’ll never get this. So, this is just a way of saying, “I’m
not going to wallow any more. I’m going to see what I’m
doing but I’m going to do it without blame, without guilt.”
“When I blame something in the world it is to
avoid seeing the upset and the resolution as they really are, a decision
in the mind. It is instead to maintain an image of self/other/the world
as I wish.” So, this is a big one. It’s saying whatever’s
going on here; it’s really a decision in your mind that you’re
making and not caused by something that’s happening in form.
So, we’re at the point now where you’re
starting to see it’s not outside your self that has to change
it’s a decision in mind. If I’m feeling upset it’s
because I’m choosing to feel upset. It’s not because something
in the world is making me feel upset. So, every time you feel like the
world is doing it to you all it is, is you’re wishing to maintain
the ego’s self concept that God did not create. This mind trick
seems to displace guilt and fear but actually maintains feelings of
Participant: And if you’ve actually got something
where you’re blaming yourself the mind trick really maintains
the guilt and the feeling rather than displace it. It keeps it going?
Speaker: #12 is saying it’s a decision that you’re
making in your mind and you must get back in your mind and choose again.
It’s not going to help you to project and it’s not going
to help you to repress. ‘To blame or fear an image of self/other/the
world requires that I believe I am limited to a body and a world of
bodies and denies the spiritual abstract reality of my being. As a first
step in letting go of all upsets I want to see in my mind what I thought
was outside it. Being upset about A…” So, now you get to
bring it back to your specific things. “…is only another
attempt to make C the cause of my guilt and fear.” It’s
Now, we are going to finally get another letter here.
We’ve got A, B, C & D. We’re ready to bring in E for
expectations. Now we’re getting down to the release point to the
point where you can really release it from your mind. #8 ‘Upset
seems valuable and justifiable when A runs counter to what I wanted.’
So, it could be something as simple as that and E is something that
I wanted or expected. That’s what we’re calling E. It’s
an action, situation or event. It’s something could be different
in the script, if you really want to put words to E. I expected something
to be different in this script. Whatever seems to be occurring you’re
saying I wish it was different.
Participant: This is your ideal, right?
Speaker: Yes, you’ve got some ideal and the script
is not meeting that ideal. So, you can see that E is very important
on this work sheet because all this work here on page 1 and now we’re
on page 2 was just to start to get in touch with E. What is that expectation
down there that I had there that is not being fulfilled. Whatever it
is action/situation/event/person I still believe in some form of lack
which is D so I think I need E to be happy, complete and at peace. Now
we’re getting down to the real nitty-gritty. I still have a self
concept/an identity image that I believe is lacking and I think I need
E to be happy. I think I need an outcome. I think I need the world to
turn out a certain way or the script to go a certain way for me to be
happy. “Is this belief in lack and the resulting expectation more
important to me than Peace of Mind?” That’s a real interesting
question. That’s when you are really getting down to where the
rubber meets the road. “Is this belief in lack and the resulting
expectation more important to me than Peace of Mind?”
Basically D is my belief in lack taking the form of
an image of self/other/the world. That D in here is the past. D is generating
E. So, because you believe in D which is the ego, you’re generating
E (expectations). It happens over and over. That’s why the Serenity
Prayer is really the whole Course in Miracles boiled down into one prayer.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. God
wants you to be happy all the time; eternally happy and that’s
what God’s Will is for you, to be happy all the time and it’s
only this ego and these expectations that block like dark clouds that
aren’t real and that’s what gets in the way to keep you
Ok, now we’re getting down here. We’ve
got some points on #9. Everything in the world works together for my
good. What I think as the cause of my upset is not the cause at all.
The choice to be upset is a choice not to see the cause as a present
decision in my mind. It’s an attempt to see the cause in the past
or future and the present as its effect. Now that’s as clear as
it gets. I’m making the decision right now to separate from God
and I’m upsetting myself with this crazy decision I’m hanging
on to or which in that case would empower you to choose again. I’m
going to choose again here; choose to be free. Or you believe that time
is causative and you are just at the mercy of the world.
Really, this is bringing it down to either you’re
in a position where you’re very helpless and powerless because
you’re at the mercy of time (the past/future) or you’re
very empowered because you start to see what’s going on and you
choose a miracle. You choose to align with your Source and feel happy
and that’s as simple as the spiritual journey gets. This is divine
metaphysics. This is the Christ Mind given to you as straight as can
be. You can choose to be happy really and always. It takes practice.
That’s why we have this Instrument for Peace because you have
to keep working through it. You have to actively practice and do a lot
of these and then all of a sudden you can do it in your mind. Let’s
see, what’s the expectation here? Oh, I really expected that ice
cream shop to be open. I signed a contract and I really expected them
to pay the money that they agreed to pay there in the contract and you
can start to see that whenever you get irritated, annoyed or upset you’re
honest and you get good at this you can zip it down to a time/space
That’s all it is and then if you desire to let it go that’s
where we get down to the next one. # 10 what I want RIGHT NOW above
all else is Peace. You have a powerful mind and that’s like putting
the ego on notice. I really want Peace right now. I deserve Peace RIGHT
NOW. I am worthy of Peace RIGHT NOW. I question D, that self concept
that I believed in, all that lack and scarcity. I question it. Now I
am willing to doubt not my Christ identity, but I’m willing to
doubt the ego and I question D and I voluntarily let go of E the resulting
expectation in order to reconnect with my one goal. Peace of Mind is
a present decision that I gratefully choose RIGHT NOW.