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Week Intensive Part 9 - God Orders my Thought
Editor’s note: This transcript has been lightly edited to bring clarification to certain points of the dialogue and for easier readability. For this reason, it does not match the corresponding audio mp3 word-for-word. However, the overall content and the expressed ideas remain unchanged.
Friend: Full steam ahead.
“Irrational thought is disordered thought. God Himself orders your thought because your thought was created by Him. Guilt feelings are always a sign that you do not know this. They also show that you believe you can think apart from God, and want to. Every disordered thought is attended by guilt at its inception, and maintained by guilt in its continuance. Guilt is inescapable by those who believe they order their own thoughts, and must therefore obey their dictates. This makes them feel responsible for their errors without recognizing that, by accepting this responsibility, they are reacting irresponsibly. If the sole responsibility of the miracle worker is to accept the Atonement for himself, and I assure you that it is, then the responsibility for what is atoned for cannot be yours. The dilemma cannot be resolved except by accepting the solution of undoing. You would be responsible for the effects of all your wrong thinking if it could not be undone. The purpose of the Atonement is to save the past in purified form only. If you accept the remedy for disordered thought, a remedy whose efficacy is beyond doubt, how can its symptoms remain?” T-5.V
David: So that’s a great, great paragraph. It seems when you are on the surface and believe you are a person, that you’re guilty. The guilt thoughts seem to be associated with, for example, not putting my children through college or guilt feelings about well I’ve got this job and there’s about forty two people relying on me and accepting the Atonement sounds real nice, but if I go and accept the Atonement and follow you, I’m going to let down these forty two people at work. The guilt feelings are always associated with something in form. What he is saying here is if you believe you can order your own thoughts; that is where the guilt is coming from. It doesn’t have anything to do with the roles and letting people down and so forth; it has to do with ordering your thoughts. And again, the problem is in the mind, the problem is judgment, the problem is great feathers, good feathers, mediocre feathers, so-so feathers, and poor feathers, however you construct it, that’s an ordering. There is a Divine Order that’s beyond the levels and the hierarchies that the ego has constructed. We really need to look to it again, accepting that the dilemma cannot be resolved except by accepting the solution of undoing. And what precedes that sentence is “the responsibility for what is atoned for cannot be yours.” He is just saying “Don’t accept responsibility for the wrong mind,” in the sense that, if it was irreversible you would be guilty, but the right mind is the solution for the wrong mind. The right mind is accepting the fact that:
God orders my thought, God created me, He orders my thought! I will gladly accept that and I will not accept responsibility for all this ordering and judging. I choose to raise every concept and every judgment that I believe in to the light, and to say here it is, the solution, what I did has been corrected. I am not responsible for the error; all I am responsible for is accepting the solution.
That’s good news!
Friend: Are we talking about not putting an order on thoughts, because there is only one thought of God so there would be no order? And are we also talking about ordering, meaning commanding thoughts?
David: Well when it says God Himself orders your thought, it’s speaking about that there is a Divine Order with creation in the Kingdom of Heaven which has been completely dissociated and denied. To step back towards being aware of what that Divine Order is, or creation, is forgiveness, which is not to order the images. If I believe some images are more important than other images then how can they all be equally unreal? No images are higher or more important than others, so to me that’s the process of undoing. Starting to see that I don’t want to continue to arrange and order the images, because that prevents my awareness of forgiveness, which is that they are all equally unreal. And then that is also preventing me from the step beyond forgiveness, which is becoming aware of the Divine Order of creation and Spirit.
Friends: So another word for ordering might be ranking? But then Divine Order of thought would just be one thought that wouldn’t need a rank. It is the highest thought, and ranking would involve at least two. If we are doing any ordering we are obviously putting something other than God in there. Is that what you are saying?
David: Yes, arranging the images. In other words Divine Order is capitalized and it’s referring to something that has to do with creation, it couldn’t have anything to do with the illusion. You could use a metaphor of once you realize there is no ordering, and the illusions are all equally unreal, then you just accept what is on the screen. I mean the screen is the screen. Then in one sense all things work together for good. As it says in the Bible “for them that love the Lord,” for them that are in the right mind, all things work together for good. And that’s still metaphorical as if there are separate things that are working together on the screen. The Divine Order in the ultimate sense with capital D must have to do with the Kingdom of Heaven. And in one sense he is saying again that there aren’t any levels in Heaven. Then he goes on to say the only levels there are, right after he’s said there aren’t any levels, is the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. But those are not levels like the seeming levels of perception and different hierarchies you have in this world, because the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit are one in Spirit. There is no sense of where one begins and one leaves off, which is unlike the levels of this world. So this has to do with the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit where there is a Divine Ordering of thought. There certainly is a prime creator which all thoughts spring from. That would be God. And there certainly seems to be a line of creation even, because he says the Father created the Son, Christ, and that the Son has creations. But you are not aware of your creations because you are not aware of your Self. When you remember your Self you also remember your Father, and your creations. Plural. Don’t try to figure that one out! [laughter]
“The little problems that you keep and hide become your secret sins because you did not choose to let them be removed for you. And so they gather dust and grow until they cover everything that you perceive and leave you fair to no one. Not one right do you believe you have and bitterness with vengeance justified and mercy lost condemns you as unworthy of forgiveness. The unforgiven have no mercy to bestow upon another. That is why your sole responsibility must be to take forgiveness for yourself.” T-25.IX
A different form of sole responsibility, he says accept atonement now, it just takes forgiveness, take your right mind.
Friend: A question came to my mind before we go on; you had said that one of the things you would like to go into was responsibility.
Friend: I think it’s all tied in for me with my child, responsibility is the key one, I can’t even take it sometimes, to meet the job, to meet the people, I feel responsible there; there is so much weight of responsibility.
Friend: A question that could be helpful might be If I would answer this call, in what areas or in what ways does it seem like I would feel like I was being irresponsible, and that would be a way of unearthing where I think my responsibility is in this world.
Friend: Yes, it really does seem to be related to my daughter, but I can work around it, and it seems like it shouldn’t be a working around it kind of answer.
Friend: You know it was real helpful to me when you were explaining about going deeper into Buddhism and your brother, and his friend were quarrelling at the restaurant and I said, “How did you handle it?” And you said “Well that’s a good question, I need to look more at that.”
David: Just getting back to the perception, to be in a beautiful defenseless place, to be a student, I’m learning. Here too the branching of the road seems like it’s pulled apart, like a separate commitment to answering the call. But just hearing your experiences as you work with your daughter around things like homework, where you have pulled back and are saying in many ways, whether it is verbal or not, You are going to need to take responsibility for your mind. That is being a teacher of God, being clear oneself and not getting in to the whole protective mode.
The thing it really comes down to when you talk about answering this call, is just getting clearer and clearer and asking the Holy Spirit what is most helpful to communicate. A lot of times it doesn’t involve the actual words from the Course and I know with your daughter that wouldn’t work either. But it’s that sense of really communicating that joy, that’s the inclusiveness, that’s what people feel so to speak, they feel the non-judgment, they feel very included, whether it involves any metaphysics or any words, it’s taught in so many little ways, and demonstrated. To me that’s the thing; instead of starting to pull it out from Ok what do I have to do to answer this call? To really say Oh I have been answering the call, and anything that seems to come to mind that would be seen as a guilt or separation or sacrifice, I will continue to question that, as I have been.
Friend: As you were saying that I was thinking, it’s not about looking for permission to answer the call. There has got to be something in there, the Holy Spirit is saying Come and you are not going out to the world and saying Should I? That brings a story to me, I went to a friend of ours, and they’ve been very involved with the Course for years. They love flowers and have a lot of perennials. They called me one day and said “Would you like to come over, I’m dividing my flowers; would you like to get some perennials?” and I said “Sure.” So I went over and I didn’t even have enough room for the perennials that he was giving me, but he kept digging and it was just really a holy encounter. I didn’t care about the perennials, we were having a good conversation and he was digging, putting them in my car, bringing them over, and pretty soon my whole van was full of perennials. And when I sat and was telling them about this call and that I was going to follow it. That I didn’t know how it was going to look, and that I can’t be concerned about the future, but I am making this commitment that I had never made before. He was very happy for me and he said, “But realize something, the amount of people that will support you are the amount that you can fit in your van with those perennials.” And I looked and I thought, could we squeeze five in there, probably three? With a smile of joy though, it was just a smile of joy, and you know you need to do this. It’s not about going out and seeking permission, because if I were doing that, obviously from a world sense, I don’t know that I’d be getting permission, so it wasn’t about that.
Friend: It’s not permission, but I do have had a real sense of people understanding on some level. The clearer I get and the more I am open to asking for help in communicating that, people are seeing something. They are not really sure a lot of times of what it is, but they are hearing something that they like. And it’s not that they are supporting me or not supporting me, but there is a recognition.
Friend: The mind is my home and it goes with me everywhere. These people that are supporting you are in your mind anyway. [laughter] The clearer you get the better the support groups are going to be. I have found that. Because it’s a reflection of my clarity coming back to me, that’s all it is.
David: It really comes down to, it pulls it away from the form, even a quantitative form; because it comes down to what do I want to see my brother as, a witness for God or as a witness for the ego? So it comes down to which lens am I looking through? Even from a quantifiable sense, there seem to be more and more people that are really saying Hmm there is something there, that as I am approaching, which way will I see my brother here? Right mindedness is supportive, thank you! regardless of what the form is. There is a feeling of gratitude because of the purpose that I am holding onto. Regardless of what the form is, someone could say They are supporting you, and with the ego lens it is going to be perceived as attack.
Friends: That has also very strongly been a part of my experience, like you said I have expressed it to everyone I can remember talking to, just expressing my gratitude, because it just was flowing out, just Thank you for your willingness to come to me and talk, no matter how you feel about it. My sister who is still seemingly angry about it, even to her I say Thanks for being willing just to talk. And I don’t take it personally. I learned something there, we don’t take it personally. How could we? And the upset is never with me personally, if there seems to be an upset it’s because of what I would represent, not because of me.
David: The next paragraph goes right in again to what we were just saying.
“Whenever a teacher of God has tried to be a channel for healing he has succeeded. Should he be tempted to doubt this, he should not repeat his previous effort. That was already maximal, because the Holy Spirit so accepted it and so used it. Now the teacher of God has only one course to follow. He must use his reason to tell himself that he has given the problem to One Who cannot fail, and must recognize that his own uncertainty is not love but fear, and therefore hate. His position has thus become untenable, for he is offering hate to one to whom he offered love. This is impossible. Having offered love, only love can be received. It is in this that the teacher of God must trust. This is what is really meant by the statement that the one responsibility of the miracle worker is to accept the Atonement for himself. The teacher of God is a miracle worker because he gives the gifts he has received. Yet he must first accept them. He need do no more, nor is there more that he could do. By accepting healing he can give it. If he doubts this, let him remember Who gave the gift and Who received it. Thus is his doubt corrected. He thought the gifts of God could be withdrawn. That was a mistake, but hardly one to stay with. And so the teacher of God can only recognize it for what it is, and let it be corrected for him.” M-7
David: This leaps it up to that top level we were talking about; even the mind looks back and thinks Well in this circumstance I don’t know if the past was completed. I attempted to heal but if I am looking back and doubting that the past is completed.... he is just saying, teacher of God, right now, accept another way. And to me that is really important because if you look at it in a linear sense you can get back into saying Well I seem to have been more successful in sharing my purpose and holding my intent in certain situations. In other situations I seem to have been less successful. But that whole thing for me just dissolves in the idea that Well it depends on which lens I was looking through or it depends on which purpose I was holding. That is really what it comes down to, it doesn’t have anything to do with whether they seem to be receptive at the time, they seem to react positively, they seem to react lukewarm, they seem to react negatively. You know, it really didn’t have anything to do with what I was perceiving on the screen. It just totally brings it back to that inward thing Well, will I hold the torch, the light and the truth out front or not? It takes it away from even looking back. It takes it to from this point forward so to speak, what will I choose to hold, what will I choose to teach with? That’s the beautiful thing about the Course, all of the past just kind of gets snipped off and you start thinking I don’t even have to go back and break it apart.
Friend: Just start again right now. Just blow the feathers away.
David: My, you are doing your magnitude there! [laughter] If a memory seems to come you can think of that; if it seems to ruffle your feathers.
Friend: Ready for the next one?
“In order to heal, it thus becomes essential for the teacher of God to let all his own mistakes be corrected. If he senses even the faintest hint of irritation in himself as he responds to anyone, let him instantly realize that he has made an interpretation that is not true. Then let him turn within to his eternal Guide, and let Him judge what the response should be. So is he healed, and in his healing is his pupil healed with him. The sole responsibility of God’s teacher is to accept the Atonement for himself. Atonement means correction, or the undoing of errors. When this has been accomplished, the teacher of God becomes a miracle worker by definition. His sins have been forgiven him, and he no longer condemns himself. How can he then condemn anyone? And who is there whom his forgiveness can fail to heal?” M-18
David: Ready for the closing paragraph of the night?
“The emphasis of this course always remains the same; it is at this moment that complete salvation is offered you, and it is at this moment that you can accept it. This is still your one responsibility. Atonement might be equated with total escape from the past and total lack of interest in the future. Heaven is here. There is nowhere else. Heaven is now. There is no other time. No teaching that does not lead to this is of concern to God’s teachers. All beliefs will point to this if properly interpreted. In this sense, it can be said that their truth lies in their usefulness. All beliefs that lead to progress should be honored. This is the sole criterion this course requires. No more than this is necessary.” M-24
Friend: I read this and for me it just takes responsibility in the world, as a mother, responsibility in anything, and zooms it to a whole other place. And I think this is my responsibility to all those people that I thought I had responsibilities for. This is it and it doesn’t single them out in any way either, but it includes them.
Friend: I was doing this for my child, and what better gift could you give a child than to teach them by example. For my kids it’s not through words, it’s got to be through action. It always is; it can never be through words. There is a part in the Course somewhere that speaks of a true teacher being one who motivates for change and what could be more motivating for change than an example of peace and happiness and joy that is just irresistible.
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