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Participant: The whole section on special relationships was real disconcerting to me. Can’t I see anything special in anybody? I still don’t understand it completely. If I go into a card shop, I feel guilty if I pick up a card for someone special. There are people who mean more to me than other people do; so, they’re special to me.
Speaker: This offering of the ego is just like all of its others. Some
of the offerings of the ego are pretty gross so the mind can say, “Yuck,
I can see this. I don’t want this.” But Jesus is saying
that the special relationships are so insidious. They seem to offer
so much value to the mind that the mind can’t see them as part
of just another scam.
We were talking about the very deep ontological guilt that is buried in the mind in believing that I have actually separated from God which is too tremendous to look at and therefore gets splintered out into the world of form. It can be having an investment in a special love partner or having special hate relationships. You see maybe the Mussolini’s, the Hitler’s and the mass murderers are the ones who tend to be put into the special hate category. It’s like that’s awful. Who could do such a thing? Hitler would get in one category and mother Teresa fits nicely in another. Oh, everyone loves Mother Teresa. But it splits the sonship up. It even goes more into objects. It’s possible to form special relationships with cars, houses, particular foods, particular climates, body forms, jobs. There’s an ordering that’s going on. As you were saying it’s highly individualized. Each ego fragment seems to have a hierarchy of special things that are highly valued in this world and some things are seen as take it or leave it, and then there are ones that are downright rotten and should be avoided. That’s like a configuration and an ordering that takes place.
Participant: It’s all an avoidance of the core issue that I can’t face, that I think I’m separate from God. So, all these relationships are ways to hang on to the avoidance of going within.
Speaker: They’re distractions. We talked before about the mind
being so afraid of not only the dark belief, seemingly the ego in there,
but it’s afraid of what’s beneath the ego which is the light.
It’s terrified because the ego has said, ‘Don’t go
near that light. You’ve pulled yourself away from heaven and if
you ever get down here into the mind and get down to that light, that
light will just strike you dead so fast and will obliterate you.’
So, the mind has run away from the light and into the world of form
and specifics, and it’s clinging and attaching itself to specific
form to give itself some meaning. Because it feels like it’s thrown
away the kingdom of heaven.
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